Hey readers! From here you will find a journal entry that I wrote in March (02 March 2010, Tuesday). It is written exactly as I write it in my journal. My journal entries are never all written together, and sometimes come off as many distinct pieces. I do hope you enjoy reading it though! In this entry I discussed some self-epiphanies, a series of spectacular weekends, and Facebook nonsense. That's right: you can't get away from Facebook. It's in your groin. ;) You like it, don't you? Heh heh.
Dear Journal (this is how I start all of my entries),
>>>My bangles leave marking on everything I write on. It's a real pain in the bum, yeah. Anyway, classes are going rather swell. I do my best, I suppose. Okay, that's a lie. I do minimally well. I miss class when I want to sleep. That excuse is inexcusable. Rather, that excuse is a reason. I hate when people think all reasons are excuses, especially when they ask you why something happened and then yell at you for making up excuses. Those kinds of people deserve a good kick in the stomach.
>>>On another note, my registration capabilities were frozen because I owe money to the school. Luckily I was still able to pick my room for next year. Surprisingly I am going to be a senior. It's fun to think about. After I graduate, I don't know what else I will do other than go home and get a job. Maybe I will finally be able to work in a book store like I've always wanted. It would be cool if I could lose a lot of weight over summer and senior year, but I guess that is not so important. If weightloss was really important to me I would have been going to the gym all of this semester. I would have been eating better instead of eating worse. I don't think I am as concerned because there are people fatter than me. When it is time for me to lose weight I will. I would much rather get surgery though. Fat or fit, I am a lazy girl.
>>>On another note, I will be 21 soon. My birthday is only 2 months and 20 days away. What does that mean for me? Should I openly enter the world of adulthood? How long can I continue to mooch off my parents for? Like seriously, I really don't rejoice at the idea of being on my own and all that. Reasons being:
- I am much too lazy to adequately take care of my 13x13 rooms, let alone an entire apartment... or worse, a house!
- I only know how to cook pastas and baked foods. I don't like touching or cooking meat. However, I really like eating meat, particularly pork. Can't fuck up pork... bad things happen.
- It would require a lot of financial responsibility, and I don't know the first thing about filing taxes.
- I owe so much money to the library that I can't get a credit card :(
>>>Returning back to school, I have given some thought to the idea of graduate school. While in theory it would be a good idea for me to get at least a Masters, if not a PhD, I don't think I am cut out for the grand idea. Reasons being:
- I don't think I could afford the damned thing.
- If going to graduate school means I have to be a teacher for undergraduate students, just, no.
- I don't want to read textbooks fully and assign them (I don't even do that NOW)
- I am not thrilled by the idea of long-term teaching.
- I don't think any good school in the country would accept me anyway...
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>>>The past few weekends have been glorious, did I tell you? (I talk to my journal as if she is a real person.) Nope, I just checked. Here's a summary:
Feb 5--7: Went Contra Dancing with the very lovely Rebecca Lovewell; bought milk for the purpose of making hot chocolate; all was right with the world.
Feb 12--14: LGBTQ+Ally Leadership Trischool Retreat
- Met some fascinating Duke & State students.
- Had a snowball fight.
- Ate amazing food.
- Made 15+ new friends
- Learned I am not the only person who suffered from depression seriously.
Feb 19--21: Super Socializing
- Friday
- Fab Friday @ Duke Equals
- Chicken Nuggets
- Pepsi
- Retreat reunion
- Dinner with Naman Equals
- Philosophical epiphanies
- Complete reconnection with ME
- [B]ski's chicken tenders
- Cold Stone ice cream
- Mild swooning/adoration <3 ^.^
- Late night @ Vespa Equals:
- Watching gay boys get it on (don't judge me)
- Getting hit on by a tipsy, curvy, Asian graduate "Lesbian" (she was pretty hot btw)
- Reconnecting with new UNC friends
- Broken Vespa walls... (I still don't know how it happened, but we all have our suspicions...)
- Saturday
- 2012 @ 12AM Equals
- "Engine... Staaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaart."
- Mmm, Sasha ;)
- Neutrinos on crack
- Sunday
- I don't think anything important happened...
>.> (Yes, this was in my journal)
>>>I refuse to continue my entry in such a small space. Last weekend (Feb 26-28) was very chill. I just had meetings. I have had 2 exams already this week. I am sure I have more tests than anyone else on the floor.
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>>>I have put a major pause on my writing. I did draw some though. It's nothing special though. I am debating whether or not I should take 2D design or 3D drawing next semester. I don't think I will take summer classes after all. While it would make Fall and Spring semester easier, my credit (word I cannot decipher...) allows me to not do it. It just means I have to take (and pass) at least 30 hours in my senior year. Oh choices...
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>>>Oh, fun fact: all of my cousins are finding me and 兄 and 姉 on Facebook. Very fascinating indeed. Granted, they are all of my cousins from my dad's side of the family. On the other hand, they are much better than their parents so it's all good. My littlest cousins, XXXX (names removed for privacy/anonymity) and ZZZZ, have grown so much. ZZZZ looks exactly the same... Creepy indeed. It's nice to seem them all again, though. Now I have to reassess my idea of family. It's something I have always had trouble with, but maybe someday that will improve.
>>>As I said in my last unit, me and a certain someone are having trouble. I have decided that I will not try to mend the issue. Anyone who has the power to make me think such murderous thoughts is not a good asset in my life. The only question that remains is how I will manage to do this carefully and efficiently, without causing an uproar or anything.
>>>I am going to talk to my cousin now and work on my Japanese. Write in you later!
<3 Kathia
Aaaaaaaaaand, that is the end of my journal entry. I hope you all enjoyed reading it. Until next time!
XoXo -- Kathia
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