My soul is angry. I am just angry at my inability to understand the fragility and simplicity of this thing called love, this factor called relationships, this processes called dating. I think, so strongly, that some people, just don't belong together. You know who you are. And I hope, so strongly, that perhaps that someday you will see that. But I may be wrong. But I want so intensely to be right, just this once. That maybe my mind will be so focused on studying the mind that I will find out what the hell it means to love, to be in a relationship, to date. Maybe someday I will find out what it means to wholly care about another person in such a way that your day is incomplete without them there for just a moment, if just a moment.
I talk to my friends who are in relationships and they seem so happy where they are, but I cannot grasp why they submit themselves to that level of dependence. I find it disgusting and sickening to be dependent on someone in such a way that you cannot bear the thought of not meeting them for said moment. I find it even more sickening though when one person cannot see, for they are so blind, that they are trapped in this relationship that is not a relationship, but a security blanket, a comfort zone. I cannot express these feelings loudly enough! I cannot suffer the thought more that two people, for reasons unbeknownst, dear to me, will end up together in a tragically and imperceptibly damaging eternity. But they do not listen to me.
Can love really be that blinding of an agent? Can love, carry so much acid to pour into the eyes resulting in irreparable lost of sight? Why do people allow themselves to be led into the dark, damp caves of love by the fiend of trust and the hellhound of security? False promises are all I imagine when I think about love. Love, understandably, isn't always bad. But why then, are people ending in divorces and break ups? Houses torn in two by people who thought they too knew what love was, only to find they were clouded and jaded to the force that was hate?
Should I even bother to apologize? Of course not. They, those I have mentioned, know how I feel about their tragic relationship. When the time comes for them to be ruined by the factor that is their disgust for each other in virtue, they will realize. IF, by some chance, they never come across this realization, then I wish them the best, and give my condolences to their success. But until then I hold true to my word that love can blind even the strongest of contenders.
Sincerely,
Vampy
well, lol, ur definition of love does not need to be the same as everyone elses. Some think it's temporary and easily fallin in and out of and some think it everlasting and long suffering. So I advise you to creat ur own definition of love and don't force other to live by ur definition or the way u see things should be put together. They know how u feel and that is that, there isn't really much more u can do unless u go around killing people which I don't advise. But anyway, yeah make up ur own rules and ur own ideas, ur best at that. For me, the definition of love comes from a very good book: Love is patient, love is kind. It does not eveny, it does not boast, it is not proud , it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered. It keeps no records of wrongs, love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth, love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always persevers. love never fails.
ReplyDeleteI hope that helped :)